Denise Lockie of Charlotte, North Carolina, has felt all of the above in recent weeks, as a string of major aviation accidents brought back memories of crash-landing in an icy river in New York. Sixteen years after the 91裸聊视频淢iracle on the Hudson,91裸聊视频� she and other aviation disaster survivors stand ready to support those who are just emerging from their ordeal in Toronto on Monday.

91裸聊视频淩ight now, they haven91裸聊视频檛 even processed what has happened,91裸聊视频� Lockie said of the 80 passengers and crew members who survived when Delta Air Lines flight 4819 crashed and flipped over at Pearson International Airport.

There were no survivors when a commercial jetliner and an Army helicopter collided in Washington, D.C., on Jan. 29, a medical transportation plane crashed in Philadelphia on Jan. 31 and a plane carrying 10 people crashed in Alaska on Feb. 6. But in Toronto, not only did no one die, the last of the injured were released from the hospital Thursday.

91裸聊视频淚t91裸聊视频檚 amazing,91裸聊视频� said passenger Peter Carlson, who spoke at a conference less than 48 hours after the crash. Though he managed to crack a joke 91裸聊视频� 91裸聊视频淣othing beats a good road trip besides an airplane crash91裸聊视频� 91裸聊视频� he later admitted struggling to leave his hotel room.

91裸聊视频淚 was quite emotional about this whole thing and just really want to be home,91裸聊视频� said Carlson, the newest member of what retired flight attendant Sandy Purl calls a 91裸聊视频渟ad sorority and fraternity.91裸聊视频�

A history of survival

Monday91裸聊视频檚 crash in Toronto wasn91裸聊视频檛 the first time lives were spared during a major aviation disaster there: In 2005, all 309 people on board Air France Flight 358 survived after it overran the runway and burst into flames.

In 1989, 184 of the 296 people aboard United Airlines Flight 232 survived a crash in Sioux City, Iowa. And in 1977, Purl was one of 22 survivors when Southern Airways Flight 242 lost both engines in a hailstorm and crashed in New Hope, Georgia. Sixty-three people aboard the plane died, along with nine on the ground.

91裸聊视频淚mmediately you have a euphoria because you survived,91裸聊视频� said Purl, now 72. 91裸聊视频淏ut then you go into what91裸聊视频檚 known as psychic numbing, which protects you from everything that91裸聊视频檚 in your brain that you can91裸聊视频檛 bring to the surface for a long time down the road, if ever.91裸聊视频�

For more than a year after the crash, Purl91裸聊视频檚 strategy was to flee whenever anyone mentioned the disaster. Eventually she was admitted to a psychiatric hospital where she told the staff, 91裸聊视频淚 can91裸聊视频檛 stop crying.91裸聊视频�

A kindly doctor took her hand and reassured her what she was feeling was real.

91裸聊视频淔or the first time, a year and a half later, people weren91裸聊视频檛 saying, 91裸聊视频榊ou look so good! Get on with your life, you91裸聊视频檙e so lucky to be alive,91裸聊视频�91裸聊视频� she said. 91裸聊视频淔or the first time, someone gave me permission to feel and to cry and to feel safe.91裸聊视频�

Survivors stick together

Both Purl and Lockie are members of the National Air Disaster Alliance, which was created in 1995 to support survivors and victims91裸聊视频� families and advocate for safety improvements.

In 2009, the group published an open letter to the 155 passengers and crew members of US Airways flight 1549 after Captain Chesley 91裸聊视频淪ully91裸聊视频� Sullenberger famously landed the plane in the Hudson River after a bird strike disabled both engines.

91裸聊视频淲e are grateful and thankful that all survived, but survivors need time to process and comprehend what it means to be an air crash survivor,91裸聊视频� the group wrote, encouraging survivors to rest, retreat, rely on others and reserve their rights to privacy.

Paying it forward, Lockie is offering similar advice to those aboard the Toronto flight. She described being in a fog for about eight weeks after her crash, struggling to keep up with her corporate job as her injuries healed and being beset by nightmares and panic attacks.

91裸聊视频淎bsolutely number one as far as I91裸聊视频檓 concerned is taking to somebody who can understand,91裸聊视频� she said. 91裸聊视频淚 think Delta is a fantastic airline and I91裸聊视频檓 sure their care team is fantastic, but then again, how many people on those care teams have actually been involved in an aviation incident?91裸聊视频�

Friends and family might urge survivors to move on with their lives, she said, but 91裸聊视频渋t just doesn91裸聊视频檛 work that way.91裸聊视频�

91裸聊视频淵ou might have fears that come out later on, and you really have to be able to deal with those,91裸聊视频� she said. 91裸聊视频淪o my recommendation is to take all the help you can possibly take.91裸聊视频�

It doesn91裸聊视频檛 take much to trigger memories

While Lockie said her experience hasn91裸聊视频檛 deterred her from flying often, it has shaped her behavior in other ways. When she enters a store or restaurant, for example, she always checks for the fastest way out.

91裸聊视频淵ou have to be able to calm yourself if there91裸聊视频檚 something that triggers your emotional aptitude,91裸聊视频� she said.

Purl, who returned to work as a flight attendant four years after the crash, said she can be triggered by the smell of gasoline or seeing news footage of other crashes.

91裸聊视频淚 look at the TV and I see my crash,91裸聊视频� she said. 91裸聊视频淚 smell it. I taste it. I see the black smoke and I can91裸聊视频檛 get through it. I feel the heat of the fire.91裸聊视频�

The Toronto survivors may find their experience exacerbates underlying traumas, she said.

91裸聊视频淟ike the layers of an onion, you pull one back and there91裸聊视频檚 another layer underneath,91裸聊视频� she said.

Her advice: Live one day at a time, seek out people who offer unconditional love and talk, talk, talk.

91裸聊视频淎nd then find a way to make a difference as a result,91裸聊视频� she said.

Holly Ramer, The Associated Press